I want to live in those jazzy moments once again...is it too much to ask for?
11:43 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
ORD LOH-
It's a pride and joy for me to finally be a part of the singaporean male family..It's my turn to shout ORD LOH!!!=D Let me flash you my all powerful "old generation" type pink IC!
Have to sensor some sensitive info in such an ugly way lol!
Well many ppl think that I'm very happy, especially my sergeants. But the truth is...I'm not really happy to ORD actually. I really do miss the job...it's been a fun job. It's been challenging, it's been very meaningful. It's been a real great bonding of the guys, heart to heart.
All these felt like a long dream, and suddenly before I realised, I've woken up from it and I feel lost. The world outside is different from what it was 2 years ago. My shoulder of responsibilities feels alot heavier, I'm at the crossroad of my life not knowing what to do for my long term future.
Alot of unanswered questions I have about life and all before my NS, many of them were not answered during NS. And now I not only carry those pre-NS unanswered questions, I have with me questions that left me hanging while I was doing my NS. So I'm officially full of questions now, with no answers.
Maybe God has answered some of them but I didn't catch the answers, maybe they're not meant to be answered. Maybe I'm asking myself the wrong questions...
Well...life goes on! I guess it's like jungle navigation in army. Just can't stop there to think why you're there suffering, but to just walk on and complete it, whether you're with yr friends or all by yourself.
